Too much going on to post on this blog, and when time permits, too weary to think straight. Sleep is what is required, plenty of it and in good succession.
So many things cause me pain these days: hearing of the teen culture of drinking and sexual promiscuity; watching people waste their lives on the pursuit of hedonism; seeing so many young people just wandering through their lives with no sense of purpose.
The culture seems to have become unhinged. Today, someone told me a young woman was raped in public outside a bar and the drunken man was seen running away. And this is becoming normal news. I feel helpless and, at times, hopeless.
Running a prayer vigil to end abortion seems fruitless when the cause of abortion is sexual immorality, which no one seems to be addressing. Is no one going to warn our youth how they are destroying themselves with these relationships, or lack of relationships rather? No one? I can't see that it is me, a 60-year-old grandmother who doesn't know what to say to this, but feels the pain of it acutely.
I hear the kids at St. Mary's University cheering on their football team and all I can think, is how many will get drunk tonight, have sex, and then present themselves for abortions in two months time? There does not seem to be any innocent fun anymore. Everywhere kids from the age of 10 up are sexualized and accelerated into a lifestyle that no one should wish on anyone.
Hearing of one university girl who had two abortions in the last 18 months and who said "my parents don't care", what can one do? She is not the exception, I am sure. Why have the hearts of parents forsaken their children? Why do they not care? Why are they seeking only their own pleasure and fulfilment? Why aren't parents loving their children anymore? Why?
I feel that we are desperate for a revival. If I only knew where the next John Wesley was, I would go and beg him to come sooner, just come. There must be someone out there of that calibre of moral quality.... or perhaps not.
As one sage woman said to me, "if this is end times, Lord bring it on."